I will beat you
Yes, I have relapsed and probably will again
But I will beat you
I will beat you into the ground so hard, that you will never think of afflicting an innocent twelve year old, like you did me
I am still fighting you
Its been two years, one year of me trying to get better
I wish I could take you on the mat
Beat the living daylights out of you
I should not crave pain
That is not a natural human impulse
But it is now mine
Because of you
If I feel any emotion
You whisper in my ear to _
That is not normal, I know it's not
How do I change it
I try so hard
But you, so often, try harder
I will beat you, _, if it is the last thing I ever do.