Today was mediocre.
Today reminded me and told me how lonely and unlovable i think I am.
It almost convinced me to stay in bed all day,
but despite how warm and comforting my bed was i fought my way out.

I had 3 guys and 1 girl message me today and I almost fell into the love trap. But I didn't!
I have got to stop falling in love with people who give me the smallest amount of attention.
I can't help my empty hands that have a tendency to reach out to anyone who is willing to hold on,
they always forget how quickly people let go.

My diary told me to distract myself, to do the things I should have done weeks ago.
The unfinished to-do lists which were screaming for me to do that one thing I said I was going to do every day for the last 2 weeks!
So I did,
I've been meaning to start that essay and pull my broken pieces into a coherent mess.

Tomorrow will tell me to love myself.
To take it easy, you're only human.
Not to bother wondering why you're in this state. But why?

Well.
I kissed my loneliness instead of you then welcomed it with open arms.