My head is heavy
Falling back into
the dark place
that I hoped
would never exist again

But it's always been there
A home from home
Offering a warm embrace
A place that welcomes
with no judgement

A place with no ending
no starting point
No acceptance of mistakes
That are created in this journey

No paths visible
No light that guides
the way
An eternal nothingness
behind closed eyes
There is no escape

No calls reach out
No voice can reach in
no hands to take hold
Not even to push away

No expectations
to be nothing more than yourself
No confusion

So I lean back further
Falling freely
Hoping the ground doesn't take long
To rise up
take the weight on all sides
I don't want to fall
anymore