before you decide
i am your friend
here's something you should know
about me

i am
insecure
depressed

i may look happy
but that's not
the truth

i don't
belong

someone has always
found a way
to remind me that
life is hell
and can i trust
you?

all of my friends
that were real have
left me
and if they
weren't real
well
you know the rest
how that plays out

if you want to be
my friend
listen up

my friends
don't lie to me
friends don't keep a simple
secret bottled up
friends
don't leave you in the
dust
leaving you waiting

friends are honest
kind
tell me if they change their mind
and are patient

but those friends have
already left my side

so tell me
can you live up to this?

can you be my friend?

no
you don't want to be my friend
you're just another one of the fakes
and if you truly
want to help me

i am begging you
stay by my side a little
longer

longer
longer
be a friend that tells me
if you're leaving
so that i can at least
get to see you in person again
before you move
across the country

and i'm left holding my hand
out
to a ghost of a friendship
that was once real
but now nonexistent

if you want to know me
stay by my side
and don't leave me
like all of my friends
before