I was mad
Mad that after everything, you still left
Mad that i was just another voice in your head
Mad that all this betrayal came from you
Mad because i didn’t want it to be true

I was sad

Sad that i couldn’t keep you in my reach
Sad that someone else had something you couldn’t teach
Sad that i could no longer say you’re mine
Sad because i gave you my time

I was scared

Scared of someone else breaking my heart
Scared of letting another pull me apart
Scared of letting go of what he had
Scared of forgetting that you made me mad

Because you made me crazy

Crazy in love with your eyes
Crazy in love with the way you never tried
Crazy about how you laughed  at nothing
I was crazy with the way you made me feel like something

Now? I’m wounded

Wounded from trying to get you back
Wounded because it was my lack
Of resistance which brought me here
Wounded from all these toxic tears

You smile…

You smile that broken smile
Of a soldier who limped a mile
That smile which says ‘ im sorry’
Even if you don’t mean it, and the vision got blurry
I took you back


Because i wanted to believe you could change
Because i couldn’t live as if i was the same
Because i wanted us to be okay
Because i just wanted you to stay

And now im mad

Because I know i shouldn’t forgive so easy
Mad with how i remember her and get queasy
Mad because my friends say to leave you
Mad because I love being blue

I’m just mad