Oct 2018
i always feel like something bad is going to happen, like my whole world is going to collapse any second and you're going to be torn away from me. i know this may scare you, but darling, just thinking of it brings tears to my eyes.. i seriously wouldn't want to live anymore. and i know you don't want to think of the person you love not being alive but that's where i would be without you. i finally found the person i want to be with, one of the only people that ever makes me happy anymore. the person i want to spend the rest of my life with. i have never been so sure of anything in my life. and i'm scared that if we're torn away from each other, you won't wait for me. darling, please say you will wait for me. because i love you so ******* much and i wouldn't want to be here anymore without you
