For some reason,
I want the school to know that I killed myself when I do it
Or even if I'm not successful,
I want them to still know I tried to leave this world;
That I tried to relieve everyone of the pain and annoyance of dealing with me,
And that I tried to leave like everyone wants

I want the principal to announce my death or my attempt over the intercom
That way everyone hears I'm finally gone
So they can cheer and celebrate
Or that way everyone hears I failed
So they can shake their head in disgust and look down upon me

But for some reason,
I just want everyone to know for some sick reason
And I guess that's selfish and bad...