I think about finding you
I think about it every single day
And it kills me to know
That you can move on so easily
That you can find happiness
And that I will just be left in pieces
And I am crushed

Every day
I witness you
Laughing and dancing
When in reality
Nobody knows you at all
And I am crushed

Did those happy smiles
Did the brushing of our hands
Did it mean nothing to you?
I am hurt every day
I am hurt every hour
I am hurt every time
I lay eyes on you
And I am crushed

Although you have pushed me down
I fight to stand up again
For I know
It does not matter how you fall, but rather
It matters how you get back up again
Every day is a struggle
I do not enjoy things I love
And I am crushed

Crushed by the sole of your boot
As if I am nothing more than dirt
Crushed by your hands
As if I am a bothering pest
Crushed by your words
As if I deserve everything that has come my way
And I am crushed

I rise but only to fall
I stand but only to trip
I smile but only to cry
And it all comes back to you
And I am crushed

I am crushed knowing that you know me
You know all my deepest secrets
My darkest times
And still
You have abandoned me
And I am crushed