you know what really hurts? being in so much pain that you forget what hurt feels like. it’s like being on fire, but you’re immortal. you’re stuck with the pain, but it all feels the same. you’re stuck on an elevator that is always falling but never goes anywhere. hurting is necessary for growth but sometimes i question why i have to go through it. what did i do to deserve this awful feeling? what did i do to make this my state of mind? why am i in so much pain?