Maybe you don't understand.
Maybe you do
I really can't tell any longer.

It's not easy to do this.
Not easy to push you away.
Not easy to try and keep myself from becoming attached.

You ask why.
Why push you away?
Can't you see
Why?!

You will only leave when the battle is over!
I'm not useful
I'm not any sort of advantage
And if I was I'm not a big enough advantage for you to stay

So why do I push you away?
Because I don't need the delusion of someone I never had.
Someone who left when I was young.

I've kept myself alive since I was 12 with no one to help me.
So why would I ever need you now?!

". . ."

Heh..
Nothing to say?
That's what I thought-

"Your right"

"You don't need me."

I-
...
There is a profound difference between 'Need'
And 'Want'

"When you get what you need, you don't need it anymore"

When you get what you want
You want to keep it as long as you can.

"why are you telling me this?"

Because I don't need you here.
. . .
I /want/ you here.