Oct 2018
every time he puffs his cigarette
it always got me thinking
about how could he love
the smoke leaving his body
or maybe savoring its aftertaste
every time he puffs his cigarette
it makes me feel sick to think of
the smoke goes in of my body, and not his,
receiving its after-effect
every time he puffs his cigarette
i’ve always think of, that it’s his escape
like me, i’m stuck in between and
he is stuck on his suicidal state of mind
that no one could ever understand
it always got me thinking
about how could he love
the smoke leaving his body
or maybe savoring its aftertaste
every time he puffs his cigarette
it makes me feel sick to think of
the smoke goes in of my body, and not his,
receiving its after-effect
every time he puffs his cigarette
i’ve always think of, that it’s his escape
like me, i’m stuck in between and
he is stuck on his suicidal state of mind
that no one could ever understand
I felt like, this is a mindset, too. Sometimes, we should stop assuming on why people do such things, whether it’s bad or good, we’ll never know what’s behind it. What if it's the other way around?
p.s. I am in no way romanticising it
p.s. I am in no way romanticising it
