if i said i didn't like pain
i'd be lying
it makes me feel alive
i don't inflict pain on myself on purpose
but i am a little more dangerous
with things
my legs have not looked clear in years
there's always scabs and bruises
splattered over my skin
like paint on a canvas
as soon as one goes away
another one shows up
i'm like a little kid
who always has skinned knees
playing rough
and acting tough
it's who i am
and i do not cry
when i get hurt physically
i always laugh instead
my bones break
my skin tears open
my blood says hi to the air outside
and no tears exist in my eyes
i'm tough on the outside
because i'm so fragile on the inside
people have said they're scared of me
because of my tough outer shell
people have said i'm intimidating
but if they saw what's on the inside
they would laugh
it's a good thing i have this wall built up