I️ never wanted my life to be like this
But the assault affected every facet of my life
Every inch
Every corner
Every last minuscule area
Tainted
Disrupted by your doing
By your hands
I️ wondered when I’d be “normal” again
But the truth was
I️ was disintegrating from the inside out
I’d never be the person I was before the assault
I️ was stripped of everything that made me, me
I️ was now stained as your victim
I️ never wanted to be held down by your thumb
But I️ feel like I️ can’t shake you
I️ trusted you
I️ had faith in you
I️ thought that having a prior friendship would prevent this from happening
But it only gave way for sinister thoughts to manifest
It’s unfair that you get to move on with life your life like nothing happened
And I’m still stuck in the time warp of two and a half years ago
I’m still tortured by flash backs
I’m still tortured by your smell
I’m still tortured by your looks
I’m still tortured by your unforgiving and unmerited touch.