colors swirl in 3D vision
highlighting my indecision
nuclear fission—my heart explodes
someone come and break my load

affirmation’s hard to come across
when your life’s watered down to a bronze coin toss
lost, simply waiting, unanticipating
the pain of losing again, second-rating

sit in the back and slump in your seat
soul black as a raven, mind white as a sheet
clean in the eyes and blind in the heart
sick in the lines and falling apart

numb, it’s a strange thing to say
that tomorrow is the same thing again like today
and even when the rain falls i say i try
to turn my face up towards the sky—

but that’s a lie.