lost in the in between
lost in your eyes
lost between my head and my heart

my head tells me go
my hearts tells me stay
but its not that cliche

i feel trapped in the guilt that follows me everywhere

every conversation lingering in my head
hours on end
thinking how i can end it

how can i tell you
without thinking about the endless ways
that you can end your life

separately
we are perfect
together
we are toxic
a viscous eruption of anger and spite
distance is our enemy and our friend
"im sorry, baby. forgive me."
and my naive brain always forgives

but im lost in the in between
until the day
i found my way out of the maze
and found myself.