Where these words shall find you i don't know maybe at some far flung adventure. I am worried cause you weren't entirely honest at your last call. Maybe you have grown to long in secrets and you have become over reliant on them. All has not gone well with me i've been low and lonely unwilling to welcome a new day, some sort of lethargy sunking into my own sadness. I feel the absence of love it's like cutting void. If i believed in God i would pray. Perhaps this is what troubles me, i have lost hope or it has left me and now i stand alone without love that i have always depended. I am so tired that even fear of what may come at the future does not affect me. Old fears have echoed to silence and self confidence rises for something yet remains. I remain... So i sign off with hope now and as ever with love for something new. The bells might still tolling and flags at half mast your world in tears, but you are the only one who hears them who sees them for my heart beats with happy stars. Let all be well. Goodbye.
Note. Someone asked me at HP if i say goodbye to the world caring if i am well, don't worry i am just saying goodbye to someone i loved and refer to her at this poem https://hellopoetry.com/poem/2718450/that-night/ Just in pain time will do the work thanks for the readings all of you!