slimy fur slides past my stomach walls
wrapping tighter
and tighter
around my fragile lungs
i can't breathe
the monster in my chest is back
fed by my guilt
and your words
its claws are so sharp
its starving for my pain
it grabbed onto the part of me
that feels so guilty
and it forces me to think about
how upset you feel
and how you think i was unfair
over
and over
and over again