I don't want to live in a future where
I
Am alone with only
Myself
My thoughts
And my Fears
But that is the only future I see
Either that or one where time is cut
Short
The tick-tick-ticking clock is stopped for me
But that would be too painful
Yet still too easy
I just wish I could give this fight up
I want to cry out "Enough!" but
My voice is gone
There is no audience anyway
I am stuck between past mistakes and future anxieties
That will become past mistakes to fuel future anxieties
I can never live in the moment
Because to do so
I would have to actually live