I can feel the oceans inside the skin under my eyes I can feel the pain that tints my cheeks I can feel the unsettling feeling of being lost I can feel everything but I understand nothing, I feel lost like I'm trapped under water with a thin sheet of ice above me and I'm trying to breathe but it hurts because my lungs are restricted by my blood my roots making me sink even deeper roots that have implanted me in the depths of the ocean by faith not by me I kick with my feet and throw my weak fists in the bubbles created by my deep breaths and I try to scream but it echoes inside my lungs its as if my body knows I'm already drowning 'there is no use', its as if it understands why no one should hear those screams its like my body knows that I don't want to live in it sometimes I feel like when I kiss you my hands tremble and I sink deeper I look into your eyes I scream into my lungs I should love you, why do I not love you? why is my heart mistaken? why am I still trapped under a label? If I cant feel am I still human?