You've gotten worse, dear

I thought perhaps if I ignored you
If I denied you
Then you simply wouldn't be

Alas it's not so easy to tear you away, dear

I've stayed up till 5am only to wake again at 10am then repeat
This cycle has lasted all month
You used to torment me from 2 to 11am

I see business is tough these days, dear

For 5 years I've pushed you away
I have denied you
I have punished myself in doing so

I apologize so please forgive me, dear

I've been irritable
I've been slow and depressed
My thoughts and focus have dispersed

What are you doing to me, dear?