I can't stop the feeling, the aching, the shaking, the beating in my chest. I can't stop the way my head is throbbing and robbing me of relaxing. I have half a breath before not breathing at all. There is a pain in my heart, like its empty and hollow. There is a pain in my head as if it's about to overflow. This feeling only ever happens when I see them, The happy ones The ones who smile brighter than the rest, The ones who have a hand to hold, The ones who have a love to share, The ones who have someone who cares. After all, I do not smile bright, I have no hand to hold, I have no love to share. I have no one who cares, in that way. That special deep and meaningful way. In this way and only this way, I am alone.