Jul 2018
Heart ache and disappointment never tasted so familiar. I got wrapped up in what we could be and forgot about what we actually are.
See, you walk all over me and then tell me you’re the one who’s broken. Like you want some sort of token of appreciation, For being honest.
How do you take my distrust and break it down into dust, I never thought we’d be back here, I never thought we’d be back here, I never thought we’d be back here...
distance is threatening.
Silence is deafening.
Questioning your worth and beauty like your confidence is deadening.
Thoughtless actions,
Meaningless attractions,
All for a, stress relief that relieved you of more than what was suppose to be just a distraction.
I, can’t take anymore hurt.
Im, so done with being broken, I’m, so done with being broken, I’m so done with, being broken.
The betrayal is so heartbreaking it can’t be real,
But There’s no doubt in how it makes me feel,
No doubt in how it tears and peels
At my emotions, no doubt in how, YOU make me feel.
I miss mornings with him.
His touch was always so mesmerizing. electrifying, intensifyingly, perfect.
His lips were my favourite
The way he placed them between my thighs gives me goose bumps inside. He was, mine.
And then he wasn’t and I can’t get it out of my head like it’s tattooed to my brain I can’t get it out of my mind like I’m about to go insane.
I, miss nights with him
Kisses on my neck and inner thighs while I close my eyes,
I, miss nights with him.
The way his thick body felt on top of mine..
I, miss nights with him.
My nails in his back while he makes me scream that I, miss nights with him.
You said it only happened one time,
Then why does it keep replaying in my mind?
Broken record, like the broken pieces i have inside.
Disrespectful, like everyone that you have on your side.
You had my daughter mama it’s you and me for life.
Man that ***** is a side *** i don’t love her not the slight.
Just another lie that got me wondering why you still up in my life.
So this is the last time, I’m letting you cut deeper,
All these love scars I’m tired of being your score keeper..
I’m... trying to kick these cravings.
This addiction is more powerful than my strength of mind I’m, trying to kick these cravings.
The habit of wanting you is engraved in me like a shrine I’m trying to kick these cravings.
Mary Jane ain’t workin, working out ain’t workin, this poetry thang ain’t workin but I’m, still trying to kick these cravings.
I lost myself in you. We made magic for we.
Then i found myself without you, and i made magic for me, i, lost myself in you.
You were my best friend, so ******* special to me like the diamond you placed on my finger that was filled with gold,
So ******* special to me, like the first time you kissed me when you were 10 y/o
So ******* special to me, like when i see you with niha rose
So ******* special to me, you taught me what love isn’t. And I’m so special to you, i taught you what love is.. your love scars me from the outside in, and i loved you from the inside out. Now all there’s left to say is.. ***** peace out.
See, you walk all over me and then tell me you’re the one who’s broken. Like you want some sort of token of appreciation, For being honest.
How do you take my distrust and break it down into dust, I never thought we’d be back here, I never thought we’d be back here, I never thought we’d be back here...
distance is threatening.
Silence is deafening.
Questioning your worth and beauty like your confidence is deadening.
Thoughtless actions,
Meaningless attractions,
All for a, stress relief that relieved you of more than what was suppose to be just a distraction.
I, can’t take anymore hurt.
Im, so done with being broken, I’m, so done with being broken, I’m so done with, being broken.
The betrayal is so heartbreaking it can’t be real,
But There’s no doubt in how it makes me feel,
No doubt in how it tears and peels
At my emotions, no doubt in how, YOU make me feel.
I miss mornings with him.
His touch was always so mesmerizing. electrifying, intensifyingly, perfect.
His lips were my favourite
The way he placed them between my thighs gives me goose bumps inside. He was, mine.
And then he wasn’t and I can’t get it out of my head like it’s tattooed to my brain I can’t get it out of my mind like I’m about to go insane.
I, miss nights with him
Kisses on my neck and inner thighs while I close my eyes,
I, miss nights with him.
The way his thick body felt on top of mine..
I, miss nights with him.
My nails in his back while he makes me scream that I, miss nights with him.
You said it only happened one time,
Then why does it keep replaying in my mind?
Broken record, like the broken pieces i have inside.
Disrespectful, like everyone that you have on your side.
You had my daughter mama it’s you and me for life.
Man that ***** is a side *** i don’t love her not the slight.
Just another lie that got me wondering why you still up in my life.
So this is the last time, I’m letting you cut deeper,
All these love scars I’m tired of being your score keeper..
I’m... trying to kick these cravings.
This addiction is more powerful than my strength of mind I’m, trying to kick these cravings.
The habit of wanting you is engraved in me like a shrine I’m trying to kick these cravings.
Mary Jane ain’t workin, working out ain’t workin, this poetry thang ain’t workin but I’m, still trying to kick these cravings.
I lost myself in you. We made magic for we.
Then i found myself without you, and i made magic for me, i, lost myself in you.
You were my best friend, so ******* special to me like the diamond you placed on my finger that was filled with gold,
So ******* special to me, like the first time you kissed me when you were 10 y/o
So ******* special to me, like when i see you with niha rose
So ******* special to me, you taught me what love isn’t. And I’m so special to you, i taught you what love is.. your love scars me from the outside in, and i loved you from the inside out. Now all there’s left to say is.. ***** peace out.
