I am so full of hate it scares me. I hate the fact that she doesn't consider my feelings. I hate the fact that he doesn't bother to call nearly as much as I need him to. I hate the fact that she can't tell when I'm drowning, or maybe just doesn't seem to care. I hate the fact that he never asks the questions I need him to, so I can open up to him for once. I hate the fact that she's closed off to the point where I don't know if she's hurting or simply doesn't want to talk to me. I hate the fact that they can move between people like toys, discarding them whenever they feel like it, but comes back to them when they feel it's convenient. I hate the fact that he let me love him so hard and loved me back, even though we knew, we ******* knew, it had to end. I hate the fact that she forgot about me. I hate the fact that he never loved me the way I loved him. I hate the fact that she abandoned me. I hate the fact that he never knew me. I hate the fact that she's so ******* kind. I hate the fact that he loves me. I hate the fact that I can't ******* hate any of you, but only feel sad and vulnerable and lonely and empty and numb because of what you've done to me. I hate the fact that the only hate I can muster up is directed at myself.
people are so tiring, but I can't stay mad at them for more then like a day. im probably a handful myself, though. lol. i used to think I was good at expressing how I feel but apparently I'm wrong.