Jul 2018
I'm becoming more distant from myself again.
I don't really feel like me anymore.
The fog seems to be drifting back into my mind
and I don't have a sun to burn through it.
I need to get away for good and start over
but I can't go without the guarantee that
being far away from here will clear the dense cloud.
All motivation to be human has been lost.
I'm hoping to soon become completely void of existing.
I don't really feel like me anymore.
The fog seems to be drifting back into my mind
and I don't have a sun to burn through it.
I need to get away for good and start over
but I can't go without the guarantee that
being far away from here will clear the dense cloud.
All motivation to be human has been lost.
I'm hoping to soon become completely void of existing.
I really need to see a therapist again and get back on meds, but Im genuinely terrified to do so. I have basically no long term support system anymore. At least not near me. I'm struggling so hard to not just end everything. All I do is get drunk and wanna **** myself
