You sit across from me on the 3pm Friday train, taking us from the throbbing heart of Nottingham to the serenity of York. I listen to the same song over and over again for the whole journey. We exchange multiple glances and multiple smiles. I imagine what it must be like for your girlfriend to be wrapped up in your arms. Part of me wishes I was her. You just look like power - the kind of power that could complete me and tear me apart all at once.