Its one of those days When darkness consumes my mind Taking control of my limbs making it press this knife against my throat On the floor sobbing Don’t ask me why it was today because I don’t know Don’t know why my mind chose the middle of the afternoon to say it wants to die It just did Tell me how do I explain that to anybody That nothing triggered me It came out of nowhere Like it was hiding in the shadows waiting for the perfect moment to strike I couldn’t do it though Because it hurt But the miniscule pain gave off temporary relief It gave me a sense of power One that I didn’t have over my life But once my episode is over I get scared Scared that one day I’ll have enough courage to not just press But stab