They used to give chocolates; you remember sausage-worm fingers diving into boxes of the unknown, sharp, sticky tears as someone is pushed too hard the box springs to heights unfathomable here, it hurts just here but only two eyes are on the boy's chest pupils up at a dappled ceiling where wet paper crackles poster paint dust making promises to spectral parents as not to get that one which gets stuck in your teeth. Now, you hover at a mouse waiting for someone to toss you two letters, maybe three unceremoniously like a wrapper in the wind.