I raced and ran to get u
from crack homes and bad situations
just so u could see your young reflection starring down
when u look at me and I would be worth it
my life was already written in the sands of time
what could I have possible done to deserve this  
I watched quietly as he beat ya ***
but never towards him did u get mad no HE never made u sad
so U left me again....
left me while I was young bruised and sad
and at one point of time I had a great father those memories made my heart cheerful and glad
and I believe when u looked at me u seen the dream of my father some u could never have.... I can’t lie my memories of you aren’t all bad
years later
I could never be mad at you....
your my mother I love you
so as I lay my head next to your frail body on this hospital bed dying of this endless disease Cancer
I admit to myself first that for a lot of years I was mad at you for leaving me at the hands
of anyone else but you which cause me to end up damaged
so a small slither part of me believe u kinda deserve this
but when I looked into your now lifeless eyes I saw a Queen again like as if it was the first time I open my eyes to you.... I still remember what ur almost lifeless body could utter... babygirl stop chasing me I lived in my misery gracefully I left u alone many times so my loving embrace you could not feel your future won’t be mine for ur broken heart is the only one you need to heal my love for you will never die with my body for when I look at you I know God’s Grace was Real....
U never forgot my birthday so when 29 came and from you a happy birthday I did not hear I knew it was for real ...
so for Mother’s Day this poem I reveal
in hopes that this broken piece in me would heal

xoxoxox
luv always ur Blakbuttafly,
Tooty