i never loved you
like i loved him

i loved him like
a child loves god
frightful and blindly
and to keep away
from hell

i loved him like
the rap songs say
the ones about
kissing to killing
i never loved you
like that

in fact
i was too ashamed
to love you
at all

because
i'm not made
of sheer heart
like you are

besides
i couldn't love you
like he did