Once, in seventh grade, I took a class in a portable that had a bathroom built in.
I sat behind a girl with brown hair that always smelled like dryer sheets.
When she would write, her shoulder blades would glide under her cardigan
as if the wind of grace was making waves on the skin of her back.
When she stood up her eyes moves to mine-- the only mobile dots on a freckled complexion.
She walked behind me into the bathroom and I listened to her **** while the teacher explained that X isn't always greater than Y.
I forgot most of my childhood and my developing years. I have a pretty bad memory. This was an attempt at remembering the tipping point when I recognized the grey in a world that used to be black and white, the glorious impurity about things I originally thought were perfect, and the subjectivity of math.