I always thrived on affection
But I have a taste for destruction.
Wonder how it’ll feel to suddenly die
But sadly for me, I enjoy feeling alive.

The taste of blood in my mouth
But I don’t like the pain from a punch.
If I could bypass I’ll find another way to ding it
The feeling of emotion from another person’s actions.

Self-preservation is lacking
For my mother’s health, I’m trying.
Stopping my Ego from killing itself
Even though after death I’ll like to see hell.

It’s not that I am suicidal
But thoughts are running wild.
Fascination with the concept of death
Cause no ones loves it enough to comprehend.



© Sofia Villagrana 2018