I'm terrified.
I know if I don't repent God will punish me.
I want to be good I swear,
right now it's just so hard to be.

I know what I've done will take time to undo and forgive
I know with one meeting with my church leader this could all be over
I love what I'm doing at times
Some days I feel like a powerful rover

I love him so much and I want to please him.
He's so happy when we're intimate and so sweet
So I don't want to let him down.
I feel like I have high expectations to meet.

Then other days I can't get out of bed.
My sins fill every thought and every action
I can't look at him without wanting to leave,
I run and run but never get any traction.

I know the solution to my problems,
but I can't bring myself to do it.
I say I'll do it eventually, that my life is going to turn around.
But that is just my life becoming more and more split.

I know this
I know this
I know ALL of this...
I know all of these things, so why can't I do it?