Step 1: Get out of bed Step 2: Look in the mirror Step 3: Practice your smile Step 4: Eyedrops to hide the red eyes Step 5: Conceal the dark circles Step 6: Breathe The curtains are almost up Step 7: Lock down the pain Step 8: Ignore the weight on your chest Step 9: Silence the screams inside of your mind Step 10: Choke down the sobs Step 11: Ignore the stinging in your eyes Step 12: Swallow past the tightness in your throat You’ve put on this show a million times Step 13: Don’t let them see Times up. Curtains up. Camera rolling
You know how when you’re not ok but you try so hard to pretend you’re ok that it becomes a ritual