Do you remember when I was younger? Do you remember when you would wash my hair because it was too long for me to do it myself? Do you remember taking me to school in the morning and buying me breakfast on the way there? Or maybe when we would go to yard sales on Saturday and you would buy me old prom dresses and costume jewelry for me to dress up in? Do you remember when I developed separation anxiety and had to sleep with you every night? Now, I wash my own hair because I cut the long lengths of it off. Now, I take myself to school in the morning and buy myself breakfast on the way. Now, I work on Saturdays to save up for my prom dress. Now, I sleep alone, clinging to my pillow. Now, I miss you more than ever before. I miss when you had hair as long as mine. I miss when you would do my makeup and tell me that I hardly needed any at all. I miss when you would play outside with me. I miss when you would rub my back and hold me, whispering that everything would be okay. I miss when I had someone to talk to, someone to tell how my day went. I miss your smile, the way your lips curled into thin lines and your gums showed. I miss your eyes, the same deep dark chocolate brown as mine. I miss your voice, the soft yet raspy one that would wake me up every morning. I miss you, mom. And I donβt think there will ever be a day when I donβt miss you. Some days are harder than others. Some days I can hardly function, And others, I wake up as if there is nothing wrong. But deep in my heart, there is a hole. One that can never be filled. It just slowly drips out loneliness, And it makes me miss you more and more.