im not good with my emotions, i give too much or not nearly enough. i dont know why my expectations are so high, it’s a constant juggle between letting them down or having my heart sink with the titanic. im not rose and you arent jack and its been 84 years and i still just cant love you back. i want to be kissed like the whole world is sinking, like we dont have a choice between life and death, and i dont want to admit to myself that sometimes, sometimes i’d choose the latter.
i promise im not dead just feel like it also im not illiterate just tired my dudes