I notice you the way you notice me
I'am aware of your existence
And i sometimes think of you
You are often in my head  
Not as a friend , maybe as an enemy
Maybe as something which im not capable of uderstanding
I feel your thoughts destroying my thoughts
It all happens inside my ****** up head
Which got ****** up because of
your voice harassing my inner peace
**** how much i want to get rid of you ...
And these days I wonder if i should **** myself to get rid of you
It's a battle where
I **** you ,
You **** me
Or we both die
That's why we'll never be  
We cannot be .