i can see it-
i will change my life for you.
to drop everything- every bill i have paid for me, every free reign i have
to pursue a chance.
i will live alone- sell my gold and diamonds
work at a counter perhaps
if  it means
i can be with you- finally-
after all of this time.
if only you could comprehend the web i have weaved for my life
then you could see
just why i am so slow to jump into your arms.
it's not me i am protecting.
i never needed a shield to lessen the sting of reality's bite.
it's you i'm guarding

i would never want to hurt you
- even if that means i suffer for a lifetime
neglecting my desire for you.