i am falling apart I have hidden so many dark secrets i don't want people to know coz i don't want pity or sympathy and  it is killing me. but if i do i would feel better but if i don't people could see what i am not and i  keep my secrets. i am bruised everyday by my past. i cry to myself inside. I want a life but i feel like i can't have it. every time i look at my self i think i have to let it out sooner or later but more or less later. i try to let some out but people shut me down. idk what to do anymore. so for now i keep hiding my dark secrets.