I'm so scared.
Such unbearable fear.
All the feelings that I've buried in myself so as not to draw more grief into my life.
These feelings are taking my breath away.
I'm so tired.

I would like to entrust myself to someone who does not condemn me, because it is easier for him than understanding.

I stand before a gorge of emotions - for this world too much to endure.
Perfect love .... do you feel the same way?
I am afraid of the truth.

When I close my eyes, I see the flame blazing. What power it unfolds when I allow all love. What love can I unite in me. Pure uninhibited love.

Love that is given to me.
Love that was withheld from me.
Love that I refuse to myself.

I would like to close my eyes and surrender to this love, burn up in it to rise again like a phoenix from the
ashes.

I'm less afraid to die than to live.

2017