Chaos in my head
i’ve been feeling no regret
just chaos
chaos in my head

for a long time i have silently shun
not wanting to know what was there
avoiding that feeling out of place

being the omega
yet aspiring for the alpha

time has drastically changed
i feel more in place

but now this ache emerges
heading to my inner me
framing an image
something unlike i
picturing a fright
of this undesirable oblivion
remodeled into the mediocre masses

aware i am this will pass by
frankly speaking,
this angst brings determination
eventually leading to me
now with ongoing inspiration

chaos brings me balance