in the moment i felt empty numb it was late i should’ve gone to bed but i didn’t i had been thinking about it for a while it was always tickling the back of my mind not letting me forget reminding me the moment of feeling something of feeling relief for a second and i did it i looked at the scissors and gilded them across my wrist then there was shame and regret and anger that i went almost two months and threw it all away i didn’t sleep that night i tossed and turned then pretended everything was fine