i had always wanted to see a genuinely normal person in real life.
you know, the kind of person who knows who they are and what they are doing.
i always wanted to ask them
"what's it like being surrounded by people who enjoy you?"
"how do you wake up and get out of bed at a normal time?"
"how do you get **** done without worrying about about time?"
"what does it feel like to love your family?"
"how do you not feel like you are suffocating
more and more
each day?"
a normal person would find these questions weird.
i guess that's why i've never asked.