Do you remember the first time you realized that there was such a thing as death? It wasn't in the sad dog your best friend had hanging around in her backyard but it could have been. Maybe it was in the ****** gums of the homeless you frequently passed on the way to the bus stop. Avert your eyes, your mother would tell you but they were glued to the fleshy drops of fluids on shirts that used to be clean. I started looking at the wrinkles on my hands as fun entertainment while waiting for my father to finish his physical therapy. I also read the Secret Garden on down times.