simply different it starts now the missing bits parts not there from now to before tho there was something there but what what was there before? dysfunctionality people always complaining now everything is meant to be fine the concept of being alrite just an illusion he adheres to it sticks to him like glue he's not felt this way before new ground emotions and feelings making it up as he goes along captured in words and photos and make believe video of how a life should be prefect multimedia family existing on the computer and in his head different than from his heart there are many things there