~I love you goodnight~

The last sweet sound I hear before the all so familiar signal you hung up
Why would you leave me, knowing I don't want to be alone?
Knowing the thoughts that run through my mind?
Knowing the tears that will soon surface?
Knowing......the darkness consumes me?

~I'll see you tomorrow, baby~

But, for me, what if there is no tomorrow?
What if I hide myself away from the world?
What if my blanket suffocates me in my dreams?
What if my demons get me?

~I'm sorry I can't think of anything to talk about~

I don't care, knowing you're there gives me light.
Knowing your taking your time to deal with me makes me happy.
Knowing your still here....makes me want to keep moving forward.

~I love you, goodnight~

Oh how those text make me sick.
I don't want sleep, I want you.
I don't want to go under the covers to try and hide from the dark.
I don't want to curl into a ball and cry myself to sleep.
I want you.....every second.....to take away my night pains.
To make them all go away.
To make me feel safe.
Yet, I don't want to be selfish,
You have things to do.....and I can't hold you back from it.
So for another night, I'll tough it up and try to fight against their scratching and biting, their screaming and pulling, the cursing and abuse......
I'll try to save my self from myself....once again
For another, dark, long, and sinister night.