**** it hurts
and i ask so many times

why.

why.

why.

everyone has asked at least once
does it ever go anywhere?

no.

no.

no.

i just wish it could stop
this pain, it brings searing heat and tears

radiating.

radiating.

radiating.


if only. the world is filled with "if's"
especially mine

maddening.

maddening.

maddening.

i can feel my emotions slow down
boiling to simmering, barely there now

numb.

numb.

numb.


why is it so maddening, radiating from my core throughout my core?
no. nevermind. it's numb.