How is it any ******* different
Tell me please id like to know
You can bow with the crowd after your show
After you’ve finished screaming and yelling and threatening
And I’m ******* crying wanting to escape you.
Because I’m sick of this hurt as much as I’m sick of you.
You say you love me
You say you care but then won’t let me be
You hurt me emotionally
And when i fight back or do the same things you do I’m the one punished
That’s not fair and i dont care
What stupid ******* book you’re reading because it’s clearly not ******* helping
You’re still hurting me
And i dont care how much or even how you apologize
Because deep down we both know it’s a lie.
So maybe i defend myself because we learn from what our parents teach us
You’ve taught me to be the abusive one who apologizes after mutilating trust.
But it’s okay because I’ve at least accepted that about myself
So now i can fix it. I can get help.
But as long as you deny how much pain you put me in
You’ll never compare in this fight, you’ll never win.
After this long with this painful tune
I’ve learned how to hurt myself better than you.