this
is what you think it is

i never thought i would write one
but then again
i never thought i would be in this situation

i thought of saying thank you
to those few people who made me happy
but i think that might make me feel worse

so instead
im going to explain
why im doing this

why am i ending it now?
why am i giving up?
why am I losing hope?

im “ending it” because im tired
tired of living with myself
tired of hating myself

im “giving up” because i can’t go on
i can’t keep pretending im fine
i can’t act like im not falling apart

im “losing hope” because there is no hope to hold onto
i don’t have a future
i have nothing, no one

im sorry
im so so sorry
but this has to happen

you may think im weak
you may think im over exaggerating
you may think im seeking attention

but in all honesty
im just sick of this life im living
if you could even call it that

so this is my official goodbye
goodbye to the world
goodbye to my family
goodbye to my friends
goodbye to my life

this
is my suicide note