My mind is blank, now
I’m not thinking
I’m not really breathing
Not really living

I’m numb
But yet I hurt so much
I say I don’t know why
But I do

I know that I feel trapped
Like I’ll never amount to anything
That I’ll never measure up to who everyone expects me to be
I hurt

I don’t let it show
People can’t see what’s going on inside my head
Put a brave face on
Smile for the crowds

I let it fall for a second
The smile everyone is so used to
They asked what’s wrong
I say I’m fine

I
Am
Not
Fine