on tuesday night i found myself in a fetal position on a bench my shoes were covered in *****,head spinning a few bottles next to me. i get up and i feel water in my mouth i think im crying but everything is so fast so fast and the air is not enough it never is. opening my mouth no sound comes i guess i was trying to scream but then i realize i can scream only in my dreams where everyone listens but they always **** me afterwards. where am i who and what am i doing here i wish i could talk to God i wish i wasn't so cold i wish i loved more i wish for you to find me God said im an idiot i hear him laughing really rude hahaha its all gonna be gone in the end and we'll finally be okay. just close your eyes and i'll be gone 5 minutes